Moments to cherish

Life is really very tough. It has lots of happiness if you can find and accept them else it is a curse. It is a new challenge every other day. Sometimes there is a feeling that you just can’t live with it and the next moment it is a heaven to you. Life is like that only.

My niece and nephew are here for their summer holidays. Nonu, 5 years and Noni, 3 years are the best lucky charms that I have in my family along with my parents, wife and brother. When they are here, life looks so easy. I forget everything while just playing with them. They are the naughtiest children. Sometimes they just go out of your control and believe me you just feel helpless. But they are too good when are in light mood. I just love them.

Ankit would be leaving coming Saturday for Mumbai. He is joining ACC Cement there. But he would be there for couple of weeks only before he goes to Dharamshala permanently via another couple of weeks somewhere in Madhya Pradesh plant. There is a very unique bond between me and Ankit. Even if we don’t talk for any number of days, we still have a very good understanding and we are never out of sync of each other. We have grown up playing, fighting, loving, caring etc etc. We are always there for each other any time any cost. I cherish his company. I have been a little shy in relatives circle but he has always been a boy next door. I love his take on life. He thinks a lot before doing anything. He can be an extremely good leader of people provided he should groom his existing skills in practical scenarios. He is a little careless while at home. His room is always untidy. That was the major reason for our fights when we used to share a room at our previous house. He is in his closed room most of time, chatting, smsing or surfing net. Nevertheless I would really miss his company. He is great human being with some unrealistic spiritual skills. My good wishes are always with him.

-NKJ

That's a crow father

Following story reminded me of my previous blog on parents:

http://nitinkumarjain.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-parents-my-god.html

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An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, "What is this?"

The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"

The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, “What is this?"

At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It's a crow, a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?"

This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary: -

"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child".

While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

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They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make us a person presentable in the society today and what are we giving them today, nothing… not even a handful of happiness.

Yesterday was the worst day of my life … I regret whatever happened … Things that I could control, I did not do. I am feeling so small. But at the same time I should say that was purely unintentional, no one understands me but misunderstands me. It might be my negative aspect that I cannot make people around me understand me. I cannot express myself to an extent that people recognize my feelings too. I am really feeling sorry. I sincerely apologize for it and will really hope that I don’t do it again. GOD please pardon me for my worst conduct ever. I cried after a very long time yesterday.

-NKJ

I want yesterday and tomorrow but not today ..

It seems like जैसे मन में बहुत कुछ है कहने के लिए पर जुबान पर वह बातें आ ही नही रही है .. मन बहुत भारी हो रहा है ..डरता हूँ कही कुछ ग़लत न कर बैठूं… why do I always feel alone when I am actually not alone … I am feeling like crying … ज़िंदगी सच में खिलवाड़ कर रही है मेरे साथ … I never thought I would be like this ever in my life ... I never thought my life would be like this ever.. but blogging has become my best friend these days and has always been with me in my bad and good times …

Why people don’t understand other people … why do they always think
1. what they do is the best thing to do …
2. what they think is the best thing to think …
3. what they see is the best thing to be seen …
4. what they hear is the best thing to be heard …
5. what they say is the best thing to say …

Why do we never put ourselves in others place to make ourselves realize that others think something else, they want to do something else, they want to say something else, they want to hear something else and why don’t we appreciate that their way could be better … we actually sometimes know that they are far better but fearing our loss to their strengths, we never accept it …

Why we human beings are so adamant to ourselves … why don’t we give importance to others feelings … why don’t we just give space to their thoughts …don’t know why but if this thing starts happening then there is nothing like living in this world … but nobody thinks from others perspective and this place is not less than a hell … no really I mean it … this place is just a hell …

Nobody in this world understands us …. Even the people most close to us do not even try to understand us … I am not feeling like living … everyone is so adamant … why I am not like them … why I am not like many people on earth … this is the biggest shortcoming for me and my life that I am not like many people on this earth …

Things that I can’t discuss with myself, I pen them down ... I am really feeling relax after writing … Don’t know if it makes sense to people who might read it … but it definitely makes to me ….

-NKJ