Moments to cherish

Life is really very tough. It has lots of happiness if you can find and accept them else it is a curse. It is a new challenge every other day. Sometimes there is a feeling that you just can’t live with it and the next moment it is a heaven to you. Life is like that only.

My niece and nephew are here for their summer holidays. Nonu, 5 years and Noni, 3 years are the best lucky charms that I have in my family along with my parents, wife and brother. When they are here, life looks so easy. I forget everything while just playing with them. They are the naughtiest children. Sometimes they just go out of your control and believe me you just feel helpless. But they are too good when are in light mood. I just love them.

Ankit would be leaving coming Saturday for Mumbai. He is joining ACC Cement there. But he would be there for couple of weeks only before he goes to Dharamshala permanently via another couple of weeks somewhere in Madhya Pradesh plant. There is a very unique bond between me and Ankit. Even if we don’t talk for any number of days, we still have a very good understanding and we are never out of sync of each other. We have grown up playing, fighting, loving, caring etc etc. We are always there for each other any time any cost. I cherish his company. I have been a little shy in relatives circle but he has always been a boy next door. I love his take on life. He thinks a lot before doing anything. He can be an extremely good leader of people provided he should groom his existing skills in practical scenarios. He is a little careless while at home. His room is always untidy. That was the major reason for our fights when we used to share a room at our previous house. He is in his closed room most of time, chatting, smsing or surfing net. Nevertheless I would really miss his company. He is great human being with some unrealistic spiritual skills. My good wishes are always with him.

-NKJ

That's a crow father

Following story reminded me of my previous blog on parents:

http://nitinkumarjain.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-parents-my-god.html

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An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, "What is this?"

The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"

The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, “What is this?"

At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It's a crow, a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?"

This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary: -

"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child".

While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

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They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make us a person presentable in the society today and what are we giving them today, nothing… not even a handful of happiness.

Yesterday was the worst day of my life … I regret whatever happened … Things that I could control, I did not do. I am feeling so small. But at the same time I should say that was purely unintentional, no one understands me but misunderstands me. It might be my negative aspect that I cannot make people around me understand me. I cannot express myself to an extent that people recognize my feelings too. I am really feeling sorry. I sincerely apologize for it and will really hope that I don’t do it again. GOD please pardon me for my worst conduct ever. I cried after a very long time yesterday.

-NKJ

I want yesterday and tomorrow but not today ..

It seems like जैसे मन में बहुत कुछ है कहने के लिए पर जुबान पर वह बातें आ ही नही रही है .. मन बहुत भारी हो रहा है ..डरता हूँ कही कुछ ग़लत न कर बैठूं… why do I always feel alone when I am actually not alone … I am feeling like crying … ज़िंदगी सच में खिलवाड़ कर रही है मेरे साथ … I never thought I would be like this ever in my life ... I never thought my life would be like this ever.. but blogging has become my best friend these days and has always been with me in my bad and good times …

Why people don’t understand other people … why do they always think
1. what they do is the best thing to do …
2. what they think is the best thing to think …
3. what they see is the best thing to be seen …
4. what they hear is the best thing to be heard …
5. what they say is the best thing to say …

Why do we never put ourselves in others place to make ourselves realize that others think something else, they want to do something else, they want to say something else, they want to hear something else and why don’t we appreciate that their way could be better … we actually sometimes know that they are far better but fearing our loss to their strengths, we never accept it …

Why we human beings are so adamant to ourselves … why don’t we give importance to others feelings … why don’t we just give space to their thoughts …don’t know why but if this thing starts happening then there is nothing like living in this world … but nobody thinks from others perspective and this place is not less than a hell … no really I mean it … this place is just a hell …

Nobody in this world understands us …. Even the people most close to us do not even try to understand us … I am not feeling like living … everyone is so adamant … why I am not like them … why I am not like many people on earth … this is the biggest shortcoming for me and my life that I am not like many people on this earth …

Things that I can’t discuss with myself, I pen them down ... I am really feeling relax after writing … Don’t know if it makes sense to people who might read it … but it definitely makes to me ….

-NKJ

insaani sach

भाई को भाई से लड़वा देता है पैसा
बच्चो को माँ बाप से अलग कर देता है पैसा
हे खुदा तुने यह इंसान बनाया कैसा
तुझे भी बेचकर खा जाए
इंसान है ऐसा
पैसा खुदा है इमान है पैसा
मरने के बाद भी इसकी जान है पैसा

गर होता सब कुछ झूट से
तो सच क्यों बोलता कोई
गर मिलता सब कुछ चोरी से
तो मेहनत क्यों करता कोई
गर होता सब कुछ नफरत से
तो प्यार क्यों करता कोई
गर प्यार ना होता सबसे ऊपर
तो इसकी पूजा क्यों करता कोई

- एन के जे

dil vil pyar vyar

तेरी आंखों में डूब जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरी जुल्फों की छाँव में सो जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरे होंठों का रस पी जाने को दिल चाहता है
तुम मानो या मानो
तुझे पाने की खातिर
खुदा से लड़ जाने को दिल चाहता है

तेरी झलक पाने का बहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तुझसे आँखे जब चार होगी
वह दिन सुहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तेरे हुस्न की तारीफ़ में कोई गीत पुराना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
मेरे प्यार की गहराई को माप सके
वह पैमाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ

मेरे जीवन में गर तुम आते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की कितना चाहते है हम
जीवन भर का साथ तुम निभाते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की किस तरह अपनी यादों में बसाते है हम
मरने के बाद भी गर जीते
तब भी खुदा से हर जनम
तुम्हे पाने की इच्छा जताते हम

तुम्हे अपनी आंखों में बसाया है
अपने दिल की गहराइयों में छुपाया है
सपनो की रानी को
हकीकत में पाया है
तेरे प्यार की 100 बार कसम
सिर्फ़ तेरा नाम ही मेरे दिलो दिमाग पर छाया है
शायद यही तेरे प्यार की माया है

ना रातो को नींदे ना दिन में करार
जबसे देखा है तुझे मेरे यार
प्यार में समझो ना हमको गवार
मजनू के चेले है Romeo के सरदार
दुनिया से डर के ना मानेगे हार
मर कर भी करेंगे सिर्फ़ तुम्हे हम प्यार

खुली आंखो से दीदार तो सभी करते है
बंद आंखों से करता हूँ मैं
प्यार तो तुम्हे सभी करते है
तुम पर अपनी जान छिद्दकता हूँ मैं
तेरी याद में एक बार तो सभी मरते है
दिन में 100 बार मरता हूँ मैं

मेरी आंखों में झाकोगे
तुम्हे अपना चेहरा नज़र आएगा
मेरे दिल के दरवाजे पर
ना कोई पहरा नज़र आयेगा
सिर्फ़ तेरे लिए
मेरे सर पर सेहरा नज़र आएगा

दिल के हर कोने में है
तुम्हारी ही तस्वीर
तान्हाइयो के अंधेरे में है
मेरी वो तकदीर
तुम्हारी तस्वीर के सहारे ही
कही मुझे जीना ना पड़े
तन्हाइयो का सागर
कही मुझे पीना ना पड़े
हकीकत में न सही
सपनो में तो बन ही जाना
इस रांझे की हीर

मोहब्बत तो दिलवाले ही करते है
वो दुनिया से हरगिज़ नही डरते है
तन्हाई में भी बाहों में तुम्हे भरते है
दुनिया से ज्यादा
खुदा से भी ज्यादा
सोते है जागते है
जीते है मरते है
दिल से तुम्हे ही अपने
प्यार करते है

- एन के जे

Why high Inflation??

How would you react when someone asks you for Rs x more for the same services that have been provided to you for some years?? I think that’s pretty fair as far as the inflation in the country and at the same time our increase in salary is considered.

Generally everyone should agree that things around us cost always more than they used to cost us before while we grew up. I clearly remember the primary school days when I used to get mango ice-cream for 25 paisa only and even for that we used to think a lot. But now Mother Dairy Butter scotch cone for Rs 30?? Doesn't matter, give me buddy. Earlier Rs 10 used to meet our requirement for the month and mind you that included the bus fare to the school. But now Rs 500 to children in 7th 8th standard seems very less. Even for adults Rs 100 was enough but now no amount can accomplish their dreams. And now human being is capable of spending every penny that he holds in his pocket in a single day.

So what exactly has happened over the years that attitude of the people has changed so much?
Is it only inflation?
Is it increase of salary every six months or a year, especially in private sector?
Or is it something else?

Yes, inflation plays a very big role. Cost of commodities increase every now and then and to meet these requirements people work harder and when they work harder they practically need some sort of enjoyment over the weekend so that they can start the next week with the same enthu that they began the previous one and now there is no limit for pleasure. People spend like anything on cinemas; eat out in restaurants; fun games in malls and shopping branding stuffs. There is no limit now. And this is where we are setting our expectations and bollywood people, businessmen are only trying to meet our expectations and today we can see the result. So effectively who is contributing to inflation, it is us who are doing so.

I know many people might not agree with this, but achieving comfort is the foremost motive of people today and for that they themselves work hard, earn more and spend even more.

Economy says when demand is high and supply is less then obviously prices shoot up. And that is what is happening today. We demand more and more, and it is increasing with days and we keep on blaming the government for the high inflation.

So are we ourselves responsible for high inflation?? Very BIG question, isn't it??

-NKJ

Naa jaane kyon

चाहा चलना जब भी दो कदम
रुक गए पाँव ना जाने क्यों
चाहा देखना जब भी गगन को
झुक गई नज़रे ना जाने क्यों

कभी ना किसी को रुलाया
रोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों
साथ था सबके हर कदम
खोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों

दर्द बाटा हमेशा सबका
सहा पर अकेले ना जाने क्यों
जीना चाहता था ज़िंदगी को
पर इसके झमेले ना जाने क्यों

-एन के जे

Aaj mann bahut udaas hai

आज मन बहुत उदास है ... sometimes things are not in your hands but they happen just like that and later u regret them ... and something similar happened today ... Actually nothing has happened as such but i know by my heart that there is something that is bothering me day n night and I just cannot do anything to protect myself and people around me ....

It started in the morning and it is 10:15 PM and still going on ... something is on a tour in my mind all the time ... I call it a छोटी आवाज़ that keeps you busy thinking something or the other ... that is actually your conscious .... You want to do something but you end up doing something else ... why does it happen ... why does it happen to me everytime ... क्या सोचा था क्या पाया है ...

Day was going as usual until my intelligence started arguing with my consciousness ... will not reveal the topic of altercation here ... it is a bit personal ... but would definitely like to pen down that I will not have a very sound sleep today .... Same as it happened last week when I was awake till 4 in the morning ...

Who is actually correct.. your mind or your conscious ... need to think a little more on it ... sometimes your mind is on the right path and sometimes it takes you away from your responsibilities ... conscious is known to be always correct as it is the first thought that comes to your mind .. that is something which you actually want to do but as soon as your mind starts poking its nose in the issue, the going gets tougher for you and you feel yourself in dilemma and what to do then.. nobody knows ..

I feel v should never allow our mind to rule our consciousness ...

My mind and conscious are still fighting .. lets see how things go ..

-NKJ