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Sunday, June 22, 2008

Moments to cherish

Life is really very tough. It has lots of happiness if you can find and accept them else it is a curse. It is a new challenge every other day. Sometimes there is a feeling that you just can’t live with it and the next moment it is a heaven to you. Life is like that only.

My niece and nephew are here for their summer holidays. Nonu, 5 years and Noni, 3 years are the best lucky charms that I have in my family along with my parents, wife and brother. When they are here, life looks so easy. I forget everything while just playing with them. They are the naughtiest children. Sometimes they just go out of your control and believe me you just feel helpless. But they are too good when are in light mood. I just love them.

Ankit would be leaving coming Saturday for Mumbai. He is joining ACC Cement there. But he would be there for couple of weeks only before he goes to Dharamshala permanently via another couple of weeks somewhere in Madhya Pradesh plant. There is a very unique bond between me and Ankit. Even if we don’t talk for any number of days, we still have a very good understanding and we are never out of sync of each other. We have grown up playing, fighting, loving, caring etc etc. We are always there for each other any time any cost. I cherish his company. I have been a little shy in relatives circle but he has always been a boy next door. I love his take on life. He thinks a lot before doing anything. He can be an extremely good leader of people provided he should groom his existing skills in practical scenarios. He is a little careless while at home. His room is always untidy. That was the major reason for our fights when we used to share a room at our previous house. He is in his closed room most of time, chatting, smsing or surfing net. Nevertheless I would really miss his company. He is great human being with some unrealistic spiritual skills. My good wishes are always with him.

-NKJ

Monday, June 16, 2008

That's a crow father

Following story reminded me of my previous blog on parents:

http://nitinkumarjain.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-parents-my-god.html

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An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, "What is this?"

The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"

The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, “What is this?"

At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It's a crow, a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?"

This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary: -

"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child".

While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

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They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make us a person presentable in the society today and what are we giving them today, nothing… not even a handful of happiness.

Yesterday was the worst day of my life … I regret whatever happened … Things that I could control, I did not do. I am feeling so small. But at the same time I should say that was purely unintentional, no one understands me but misunderstands me. It might be my negative aspect that I cannot make people around me understand me. I cannot express myself to an extent that people recognize my feelings too. I am really feeling sorry. I sincerely apologize for it and will really hope that I don’t do it again. GOD please pardon me for my worst conduct ever. I cried after a very long time yesterday.

-NKJ

Sunday, June 15, 2008

I want yesterday and tomorrow but not today ..

It seems like जैसे मन में बहुत कुछ है कहने के लिए पर जुबान पर वह बातें आ ही नही रही है .. मन बहुत भारी हो रहा है ..डरता हूँ कही कुछ ग़लत न कर बैठूं… why do I always feel alone when I am actually not alone … I am feeling like crying … ज़िंदगी सच में खिलवाड़ कर रही है मेरे साथ … I never thought I would be like this ever in my life ... I never thought my life would be like this ever.. but blogging has become my best friend these days and has always been with me in my bad and good times …

Why people don’t understand other people … why do they always think
1. what they do is the best thing to do …
2. what they think is the best thing to think …
3. what they see is the best thing to be seen …
4. what they hear is the best thing to be heard …
5. what they say is the best thing to say …

Why do we never put ourselves in others place to make ourselves realize that others think something else, they want to do something else, they want to say something else, they want to hear something else and why don’t we appreciate that their way could be better … we actually sometimes know that they are far better but fearing our loss to their strengths, we never accept it …

Why we human beings are so adamant to ourselves … why don’t we give importance to others feelings … why don’t we just give space to their thoughts …don’t know why but if this thing starts happening then there is nothing like living in this world … but nobody thinks from others perspective and this place is not less than a hell … no really I mean it … this place is just a hell …

Nobody in this world understands us …. Even the people most close to us do not even try to understand us … I am not feeling like living … everyone is so adamant … why I am not like them … why I am not like many people on earth … this is the biggest shortcoming for me and my life that I am not like many people on this earth …

Things that I can’t discuss with myself, I pen them down ... I am really feeling relax after writing … Don’t know if it makes sense to people who might read it … but it definitely makes to me ….

-NKJ

Saturday, June 7, 2008

insaani sach

भाई को भाई से लड़वा देता है पैसा
बच्चो को माँ बाप से अलग कर देता है पैसा
हे खुदा तुने यह इंसान बनाया कैसा
तुझे भी बेचकर खा जाए
इंसान है ऐसा
पैसा खुदा है इमान है पैसा
मरने के बाद भी इसकी जान है पैसा

गर होता सब कुछ झूट से
तो सच क्यों बोलता कोई
गर मिलता सब कुछ चोरी से
तो मेहनत क्यों करता कोई
गर होता सब कुछ नफरत से
तो प्यार क्यों करता कोई
गर प्यार ना होता सबसे ऊपर
तो इसकी पूजा क्यों करता कोई

- एन के जे

dil vil pyar vyar

तेरी आंखों में डूब जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरी जुल्फों की छाँव में सो जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरे होंठों का रस पी जाने को दिल चाहता है
तुम मानो या मानो
तुझे पाने की खातिर
खुदा से लड़ जाने को दिल चाहता है

तेरी झलक पाने का बहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तुझसे आँखे जब चार होगी
वह दिन सुहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तेरे हुस्न की तारीफ़ में कोई गीत पुराना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
मेरे प्यार की गहराई को माप सके
वह पैमाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ

मेरे जीवन में गर तुम आते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की कितना चाहते है हम
जीवन भर का साथ तुम निभाते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की किस तरह अपनी यादों में बसाते है हम
मरने के बाद भी गर जीते
तब भी खुदा से हर जनम
तुम्हे पाने की इच्छा जताते हम

तुम्हे अपनी आंखों में बसाया है
अपने दिल की गहराइयों में छुपाया है
सपनो की रानी को
हकीकत में पाया है
तेरे प्यार की 100 बार कसम
सिर्फ़ तेरा नाम ही मेरे दिलो दिमाग पर छाया है
शायद यही तेरे प्यार की माया है

ना रातो को नींदे ना दिन में करार
जबसे देखा है तुझे मेरे यार
प्यार में समझो ना हमको गवार
मजनू के चेले है Romeo के सरदार
दुनिया से डर के ना मानेगे हार
मर कर भी करेंगे सिर्फ़ तुम्हे हम प्यार

खुली आंखो से दीदार तो सभी करते है
बंद आंखों से करता हूँ मैं
प्यार तो तुम्हे सभी करते है
तुम पर अपनी जान छिद्दकता हूँ मैं
तेरी याद में एक बार तो सभी मरते है
दिन में 100 बार मरता हूँ मैं

मेरी आंखों में झाकोगे
तुम्हे अपना चेहरा नज़र आएगा
मेरे दिल के दरवाजे पर
ना कोई पहरा नज़र आयेगा
सिर्फ़ तेरे लिए
मेरे सर पर सेहरा नज़र आएगा

दिल के हर कोने में है
तुम्हारी ही तस्वीर
तान्हाइयो के अंधेरे में है
मेरी वो तकदीर
तुम्हारी तस्वीर के सहारे ही
कही मुझे जीना ना पड़े
तन्हाइयो का सागर
कही मुझे पीना ना पड़े
हकीकत में न सही
सपनो में तो बन ही जाना
इस रांझे की हीर

मोहब्बत तो दिलवाले ही करते है
वो दुनिया से हरगिज़ नही डरते है
तन्हाई में भी बाहों में तुम्हे भरते है
दुनिया से ज्यादा
खुदा से भी ज्यादा
सोते है जागते है
जीते है मरते है
दिल से तुम्हे ही अपने
प्यार करते है

- एन के जे

Friday, June 6, 2008

Why high Inflation??

How would you react when someone asks you for Rs x more for the same services that have been provided to you for some years?? I think that’s pretty fair as far as the inflation in the country and at the same time our increase in salary is considered.

Generally everyone should agree that things around us cost always more than they used to cost us before while we grew up. I clearly remember the primary school days when I used to get mango ice-cream for 25 paisa only and even for that we used to think a lot. But now Mother Dairy Butter scotch cone for Rs 30?? Doesn't matter, give me buddy. Earlier Rs 10 used to meet our requirement for the month and mind you that included the bus fare to the school. But now Rs 500 to children in 7th 8th standard seems very less. Even for adults Rs 100 was enough but now no amount can accomplish their dreams. And now human being is capable of spending every penny that he holds in his pocket in a single day.

So what exactly has happened over the years that attitude of the people has changed so much?
Is it only inflation?
Is it increase of salary every six months or a year, especially in private sector?
Or is it something else?

Yes, inflation plays a very big role. Cost of commodities increase every now and then and to meet these requirements people work harder and when they work harder they practically need some sort of enjoyment over the weekend so that they can start the next week with the same enthu that they began the previous one and now there is no limit for pleasure. People spend like anything on cinemas; eat out in restaurants; fun games in malls and shopping branding stuffs. There is no limit now. And this is where we are setting our expectations and bollywood people, businessmen are only trying to meet our expectations and today we can see the result. So effectively who is contributing to inflation, it is us who are doing so.

I know many people might not agree with this, but achieving comfort is the foremost motive of people today and for that they themselves work hard, earn more and spend even more.

Economy says when demand is high and supply is less then obviously prices shoot up. And that is what is happening today. We demand more and more, and it is increasing with days and we keep on blaming the government for the high inflation.

So are we ourselves responsible for high inflation?? Very BIG question, isn't it??

-NKJ

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Naa jaane kyon

चाहा चलना जब भी दो कदम
रुक गए पाँव ना जाने क्यों
चाहा देखना जब भी गगन को
झुक गई नज़रे ना जाने क्यों

कभी ना किसी को रुलाया
रोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों
साथ था सबके हर कदम
खोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों

दर्द बाटा हमेशा सबका
सहा पर अकेले ना जाने क्यों
जीना चाहता था ज़िंदगी को
पर इसके झमेले ना जाने क्यों

-एन के जे

Monday, June 2, 2008

Aaj mann bahut udaas hai

आज मन बहुत उदास है ... sometimes things are not in your hands but they happen just like that and later u regret them ... and something similar happened today ... Actually nothing has happened as such but i know by my heart that there is something that is bothering me day n night and I just cannot do anything to protect myself and people around me ....

It started in the morning and it is 10:15 PM and still going on ... something is on a tour in my mind all the time ... I call it a छोटी आवाज़ that keeps you busy thinking something or the other ... that is actually your conscious .... You want to do something but you end up doing something else ... why does it happen ... why does it happen to me everytime ... क्या सोचा था क्या पाया है ...

Day was going as usual until my intelligence started arguing with my consciousness ... will not reveal the topic of altercation here ... it is a bit personal ... but would definitely like to pen down that I will not have a very sound sleep today .... Same as it happened last week when I was awake till 4 in the morning ...

Who is actually correct.. your mind or your conscious ... need to think a little more on it ... sometimes your mind is on the right path and sometimes it takes you away from your responsibilities ... conscious is known to be always correct as it is the first thought that comes to your mind .. that is something which you actually want to do but as soon as your mind starts poking its nose in the issue, the going gets tougher for you and you feel yourself in dilemma and what to do then.. nobody knows ..

I feel v should never allow our mind to rule our consciousness ...

My mind and conscious are still fighting .. lets see how things go ..

-NKJ

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Deepawali ke do pal

दीवाली की शुभकामनाये आप सब को
दीवाली के दिन ज़रूर याद करे उस रब को
जिसने तुम्हे जीवन दिया
जीवन में ढेर सारी खुशिया दी

और ना भूले उन माता पिता को
जो करते है तुम पर खुशियों की बारिश
तुम्हारी तरक्की ही है जिनकी एक मात्र ख्वाइश

और जरूर याद करे उन हजारों लाखों करोडो बच्चो को
जो तरसते है सिर्फ़ एक रोटी के लिए
क्या दीवाली क्या होली उनके लिए
जो भूखे है आपके प्यार के
जिनके आँसू नही है इंतज़ार के

क्या खुदा को दोष दे उनकी इस हालत का
या वह ख़ुद दोषी है अपनी इस हालत का
या हम ख़ुद ज़िम्मेदारी ली
खोल के दरवाज़ा अपनी खुद्दारी की अदालत का

!!! २४ अक्टूबर २००३ (दिपावली) की कृति !!!

-एन के जे

Dil aisa kisi ne mera toda

क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे
जी लेंगे फ़िर भी उनकी यादों के सहारे
खुश रहे वह सदा यह दुआ है हमारी
हमारा जैसा भी हुआ ना आए कभी उनकी बारी
चाँद एक है तो क्या हुआ
ढेर सारे है तारे
पतझड़ के बाद ही आती है बहारे
क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे
क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे

!! १९ अक्टूबर २००३ की कृति !!

- एन के जे

Kadva sach

क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता
क्यों आज इस दुनिया में प्यार भी है बिकता
क्यों इंसानों ने इंसानों की कीमत है लगाई
क्यों आज खुशियों में बजती नही शेहनाई
क्यों नही बहता झरना आज किसी की प्यास भुझा पता
क्यों सिर्फ़ मुसीबत की घड़ी में है खुदा याद आता
क्यों मजबूरन आज मैं इतना कुछ लिखता
क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता
क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता

यह कविता मैंने १४ अक्टूबर २००३ में लिखी मैं कुछ दिनों से अपने लेख ढूँढ रहा था अपने कंप्यूटर में और आज भाग्ये से मैं इसको ढूँढ पाया और इसको ब्लॉग में प्रकाशित कर रहा हूँ ना जाने क्यों अपनी सारी कृतिया ब्लॉग पर डालना चाहता हूँ शायद इसलिए ताकि एक जगह पर आसानी से इन सबको फुरसत के क्षणों में पड़ पाऊं

अभी आगे मैं अपनी सारी कृतिया यहाँ पोस्ट करूँगा !

-एन के जे

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Pyar se pyara pyar

तेरे बिना यह दुनिया सूनी लागे रे
तेरे बिना यह आँखे सारी रात जागे रे
जहा देखु उठा के नज़र
हर चेहरा तेरा चेहरा लागे रे

मोहब्बत की इन्तेहा महसूस करते है
तेरे बिना एक एक पल
कई कई बार मरते है
अपना सब कुछ देदु आपको
मेरे आंसू ना चले जाए डरते है

मेरा प्यार दूर है
कुछ खट्टी कुछ मीठी बातों के साथ
यह दिल क्या चाहे
बस दो घड़ी अपने प्यार से मुलाक़ात
लेकर उसका हाथो में हाथ
चार पल प्यारी बात
पूरी रात

फूलों में खुशबू है
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
फिजाओ में रंगत है
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
दरिया सा दिल
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
चाँद की चांदनी
मेरी जान सा कहाँ

ज़िंदगी के मायेने बदले
जब तुम मिले
चेहरे ने रंग बदले
जब तुम खिले
छोड़ के दुनिया के सारे गिले
आओ एक सपना देखे
जहाँ आँखें बतियाये
और हो होंठ सिले

तेरी आंखो में डूब जाना चाहता हूँ
तेरे होंठो का सारा रस पी जाना चाहता हूँ
खो जाऊँ इस पल में इस तरह की
यह पल तेरे पलको में जी जाना चाहता हूँ

-एन के जे

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Shradhanjali

श्रधांजलि देश के उन वीरो को जिन्होंने अपनी जान देकर हमे जिंदा रखा !!!

!!!!!!! हिम्मतेबाद्शाह !!!!!!!!!

अपनी माटी की खुशबु को
ना बिकने दिया ना ही मिटने दिया
दुश्मनों के नापाक मंसूबों को
हिन्दुस्तान की धरती पे ना टिकने दिया

देख पे जान न्योछावर करने
धरती माँ के एहसान को भरने
पहुँच गए सीमाओं पर
हमारी ज़िंदगी के लिए मरने

छोड़ गए तरसती माँ
इंतज़ार में पत्नी, बिलखते बच्चे
देश पे कुर्बानी के आगे
रिश्तो के धागे पड़ गए कच्चे
ऐसे है वह वीर हमारे सच्चे

ना ज़िंदगी से कुछ चाहा
ना दुश्मनों के आएग सर झुकाया
वतन पर कुर्बान इन वीरो ने
भारत माँ का क़र्ज़ चुकाया

एक लाश मेरे सिपाही की
लहराता हुआ तिरंगा हाथों में
वह भी किसी के अपने थे
पर ढूँढा ना दर्द रिश्ते नातों में
जिन्हें करना था वह कर गए
और हम उलझ गए सिर्फ़ बातों में

अब बारी है हमारी हमे क्या करना है
मरकर भी इन्हे यादों में जिंदा रखना है
इनकी कुर्बानी खाली ना जाए
कुछ ऐसा कर गुज़रना है
भारत के लिए जीना है
और सिर्फ़ इसी के लिए मरना है
सिर्फ़ और सिर्फ़ इसी के लिए मरना है

" ऐ मेरे वतन के लोगो
ज़रा आँख में भर लो पानी
जो शहीद हुए है उनकी
ज़रा याद करो कुर्बानी
ज़रा याद करो कुर्बानी "

यह पंक्तियों मैंने कॉलेज के दिनों में लिखी थी मुझे उस वक्त भी अपने वतन से उतना ही प्रेम था जितना की आज ज्यादा कुछ कर नही पता हूँ अपने वतन के लिए पर कोशिश करता हूँ जो भी करूँ वह वतन के ख़िलाफ़ ना हो आज भी उन पलो को नही भूल पता हूँ जब इन पंक्तियों को पन्ने पे उतारा था, कितना भावयुक्त हो गया था मैं कुछ कर गुज़रना चाहता हूँ

-एन के जे

Dard

दर्द वह नही जो तेरा है ...
दर्द वह भी नही जो मेरा है ...
दर्द को अपनी उल्फत ना समझो ...
दर्द वह इबादत है जो दूसरो का हो तो हमारा है ..

कितनी पास होकर भी दूर हो तुम ...
दिल का एहसास होकर भी मजबूर हो तुम ...
ना समझ सके जो मेरे दिल की चाह ...
क्या मेरे दिल का सिर्फ़ एक फितूर हो तुम ...

तेरा दिल जो चाहे वह मैं नही जानता ...
मेरा दिल क्या चाहे उससे तू अनजान है ...
मैंने ही कहा खुशी दी है तुझको ...
जो तुझसे खुशी पाने का अरमान है ...

प्यार ना कहे कर ना किया जाए तो नागुवार लगता है ...
प्यार कहे कर ना किया जाए तो दुशवार लगता है ...
प्यार कहा जाए और किया जाए तो गुलज़ार लगता है ...
प्यार ना कहे कर किया जाए तो प्यार लगता है ...

मुझे अपने लिए जीना नही आता ...
मैं अपने लिए जीना नही चाहता ...
चाहता हूँ प्यार जो मेरी इस चाहत को अपना सके ...
खता तो उसकी भी नही जो उसने जीना चाहा ...
खता तो मैंने की जो उसको ना समझ पाया ...

- एन के जे

Friday, May 23, 2008

Lies

Sometime back I used to wonder why people lie. Is it because, it makes them happy? They simply love doing it again n again. Their basic instinct is like that. Or is it because it makes others happy to whom they are lying? Or is it because it is technically incorrect to follow the path of honesty and truth as it might be lengthy, tricky and problematic? Don’t know what actually the answer is but it should be amongst the above.

Some people have grown up listening to lies all around their home/school/locality. For e.g. “Papa is at home but mom on the phone tells some uncle that papa is not at home”. So endlessly listening to these little little things, it has become a part of their trait. So they don’t know why they do it but they just do it. These people lie so casually that they don’t even think about its consequences. I call it "a casual lie".

Some people lie not because they want to but because they have to. They lie because they want to meet the expectations of the people they are lying to. They know that telling them truth might hamper their relationship and it might do some serious damage to them. So they plan to lie in such a way that their dear ones remain unaffected with the bitter truth. I call it "a personal lie" as there is no motive as such behind it but it is said for a noble cause.

Some people fool around the world with their tactical mind plays. They do it for their monetary benefits. They plan, schedule and execute it with perfection. But consequences to these types of lies are very hazardous not only to him but to the whole society. These lies make success appears very close but short-lived too. I call it "a professional lie".

According to me - a lie is after all a lie. And even if it is said for a good cause, it is always short-lived. Truth has always conquered and will continue to do.

-NKJ

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Garbage truck

The following is this week’s flush fact that is being put in my office washrooms and I was so impressed with it that I came back to my seat and the first thing that I did was, searched it on Google and found it easily. Whoever has written it has written it brilliantly.

Read it first.

How often do you let other people's nonsense change your mood? Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you're the Terminator, for an instant you're probably set back on your heels. However, the mark of a successful person is how quickly she can get back her focus on what's important.

Learned it in the back of a Harare City taxi cab. Here's what happened. I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Westgate. We were driving when all of a sudden a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car's back end by just inches! Here's what happened next. The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us. How do I know? Ask any Zimbabwean, some words in Harare come with a special face.

Now, here's what blew me away. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, “The Law of the Garbage Truck." Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you. When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personal. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. You'll be happy you did. I guarantee it.

So this was it: The "Law of the Garbage Truck." I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people: at work, at home, on the streets? It was that day I said, "I'm not going to do it anymore." I began to see garbage trucks. Like in the movie "The Sixth Sense," the little boy said, "I see Dead People." Well now "I see Garbage Trucks." I see the load they're carrying. I see them coming to drop it off. And like my Taxi Driver, I don't make it a personal thing; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

You must be feeling why I am sharing this when it is readliy available on web. The reason being, this is one of those little things that happen with everyone every time after we wake up and before we go back to bed at night. And important thing is that it occurs effortlessly. I won’t say it is the Garbage truck who is on fault, but it is us who let it dump its garbage on us.

I know nobody wants it to happen then why does it happen? Have you ever thought why does it happen when we never want it to happen? The basic reason for this is that, we have forgotten our courtesy. We have stopped thinking about being courteous and polite to others. There is always something ghastly running within us. And the job of the garbage truck is to only ignite that dangerous hatred gasoline in our hearts.

To me loving people without expecting them to love you in return is what actual love is. And being lovable is the best trait to have. You just need to love everyone unconditionally. And true love, not just for the sake of it. Good manners, civility, graciousness, sociability are some of the adjectives that we should keep with us all the time.

I follow “Gandhigiri” and it really helps me reading the mind of others and understand their behaviour. Just try it once and you would love it.

Try it dear!!!

-NKJ

Monday, May 19, 2008

Just another day ...

A very fresh day I must say. Why fresh?? I got up early in the morning today and went for a morning walk to a nearby sophisticated park with my beloved wife. The weather was extremely pleasant, and drizzling was making it more enjoyable. It had rained the previous night. I used to do morning walk regularly a couple of years ago but the busy schedule at office and home took it out of my mind and I could not continue with my morning walk. But I am feeling much better today. Especially after working for 9 hours on Sunday continuously without an AC / Cooler on a website development, I needed something to refresh myself before the new week starts. And I got a start to the week that I wanted. I believe breathing fresh air is far better than visiting doctors every now and then. Trust me it is.

Office was as usual. Couple of developments, coordinating with the TL and helping team members were the stuffs I was involved in.

My cell phones kept disturbing me every minute, but I am also stubborn enough to ignore them all :-). I hate receiving calls from unknown numbers now but I don’t register myself to do-not-call-registry as sometimes it is easy when a service provider approaches us instead we approach them in need.

IPL fever is also ON. It is a very healthy time pass these days after you reach back home dead tired. I am thinking what people in India would do after the end of IPL, may be ICL would also reach to the glory where IPL has arrived. And then it would be alternate ICL --> IPL --> ICL --> IPL …………… reads very funny but I really don’t doubt why it can’t happen ..

Blogging has become an important part of my life … I would love to write something or the other daily but only if the time permits...

-NKJ

Saturday, May 17, 2008

my PARENTS... my GOD...

It was a holiday today yet so hectic.... it was really... I had a good afternoon nap, still I am feeling very tired.... probably because of the humid weather ... it was a damn hot day... today. I was not in the office AC, so I might have felt it, mamma papa feel it all throughout the day, all 7 days ... that is why I am buying them an AC ... I have always wanted to give them my everything in my best possible way.

When we were kids, they never hesitated to buy us things that we demanded then why should we even think of thinking to give them anything ... I don't know why many of us after growing up think 1000 times before giving anything to our parents. Just because we have started earning, just because we are capable of living of our own, just because we can fight with our own life, just because we have started thinking on the lines that we are mature enough to take our own decisions.... No it is nothing like that; it is just that we have started modernizing ourselves like people in the West, where parents let their children live their life after 18 on their own.... But we are not like them, our culture is different, we have a very different tradition, strong bonding of love, we still believe in living in joint families where even if you cough once, your whole family is standing beside you. We don’t even feel bad listening to their scolding.

I cannot tolerate anyone abusing their parents for any reason. I simply hate those people. How can anyone forget their responsibilities towards them? Parents never forget their responsibilities. They are always with us whether in good or bad times. They don’t even think of keeping us away from their blessings. Then how can we deprive them from our presence and love??

I really feel bad for people who have grown up without parents. For me they must have done something really bad in their previous life that they have been penalized so roughly.

To me, my parents are my God on the earth and I will always live for them.

-NKJ

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Life

Friends,

I would like to share some of my mantras of life:

· Not living does not mean can't live....
· Life is not how u take it as but how u make it as....
· Behavior changes but character remains.....
· I never say I am d best coz I know nobody is....
· I am ill not because I am but because I want to....
· Maturity does not come with age but with attitude....
· I hardly live for myself.... mostly live for others....
· Live life as if you can't die....


I don't write them just like that, but each one of them has a connection with my life in some way.

I have been thru many phases of my life … A mischievous student in the school, silent boy next seat in the college, a shy child at home, an obedient and a techie team member in the office. But I have never allowed anyone deviate me from my principles of life. To me, life is not just living in/for/to yourself but to me life is living life for others you know, you don’t know. Satisfaction that I get for the work for myself does not give me a sound sleep, but being a helping hand for others give me a rock-solid dream as well. I don’t know why I am like that but I just love it. All my personal needs have the least priority in my list.

I might have destroyed dreams of some, while fulfilling my principles and helping many but I don’t regret them not because I don’t consider them mistakes and I wish to forget them but because they were very vigilantly taken decisions that had groomed everyone involved later. This is life. You cannot be in the comfort zone all the time.

My favorite song on zindagi:
Kisi ki muskurahatho pe ho nisaar ….
Kisi ka dadr mil sake to le udhaar ….
Kisi ke vaaste ho tere dil mein pyaar ….
Jeena isi ka naam hai ….
Jeena isi ka naam hai ....


So here I would end and hope to write something sometime later….

-NKJ

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

First one

So finally I have landed in the Blog world. I have always thought of keeping myself away from blogs (why?? I thought these are for people who have lots of time to waste) but really don't know who inspired me to join it. The fact may be that I read Amitabh's blog today and I really liked it in a way that you don't need news channels or news papers all the time to express your views. Blogs can easily do that for you. I have always been cherished by the persona of Mr. Amitabh Bachchan and that is one of the reasons I am entering in this unique world. This is my first blog, so I'll keep it short but I would love to share my feelings/views on myself, my life and different issues every now and then. That is it for now.

bye for now ...
-NKJ

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Moments to cherish

Life is really very tough. It has lots of happiness if you can find and accept them else it is a curse. It is a new challenge every other day. Sometimes there is a feeling that you just can’t live with it and the next moment it is a heaven to you. Life is like that only.

My niece and nephew are here for their summer holidays. Nonu, 5 years and Noni, 3 years are the best lucky charms that I have in my family along with my parents, wife and brother. When they are here, life looks so easy. I forget everything while just playing with them. They are the naughtiest children. Sometimes they just go out of your control and believe me you just feel helpless. But they are too good when are in light mood. I just love them.

Ankit would be leaving coming Saturday for Mumbai. He is joining ACC Cement there. But he would be there for couple of weeks only before he goes to Dharamshala permanently via another couple of weeks somewhere in Madhya Pradesh plant. There is a very unique bond between me and Ankit. Even if we don’t talk for any number of days, we still have a very good understanding and we are never out of sync of each other. We have grown up playing, fighting, loving, caring etc etc. We are always there for each other any time any cost. I cherish his company. I have been a little shy in relatives circle but he has always been a boy next door. I love his take on life. He thinks a lot before doing anything. He can be an extremely good leader of people provided he should groom his existing skills in practical scenarios. He is a little careless while at home. His room is always untidy. That was the major reason for our fights when we used to share a room at our previous house. He is in his closed room most of time, chatting, smsing or surfing net. Nevertheless I would really miss his company. He is great human being with some unrealistic spiritual skills. My good wishes are always with him.

-NKJ

Monday, June 16, 2008

That's a crow father

Following story reminded me of my previous blog on parents:

http://nitinkumarjain.blogspot.com/2008/05/my-parents-my-god.html

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An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son. Suddenly a crow perched on their window.

The Father asked his Son, "What is this?"

The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"

The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, “What is this?"

At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff. "It's a crow, a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?"

This time the Son shouted at his Father, "Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary: -

"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow was sitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to him all 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times. I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child".

While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and when today the Father asked his Son the same question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

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They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make us a person presentable in the society today and what are we giving them today, nothing… not even a handful of happiness.

Yesterday was the worst day of my life … I regret whatever happened … Things that I could control, I did not do. I am feeling so small. But at the same time I should say that was purely unintentional, no one understands me but misunderstands me. It might be my negative aspect that I cannot make people around me understand me. I cannot express myself to an extent that people recognize my feelings too. I am really feeling sorry. I sincerely apologize for it and will really hope that I don’t do it again. GOD please pardon me for my worst conduct ever. I cried after a very long time yesterday.

-NKJ

Sunday, June 15, 2008

I want yesterday and tomorrow but not today ..

It seems like जैसे मन में बहुत कुछ है कहने के लिए पर जुबान पर वह बातें आ ही नही रही है .. मन बहुत भारी हो रहा है ..डरता हूँ कही कुछ ग़लत न कर बैठूं… why do I always feel alone when I am actually not alone … I am feeling like crying … ज़िंदगी सच में खिलवाड़ कर रही है मेरे साथ … I never thought I would be like this ever in my life ... I never thought my life would be like this ever.. but blogging has become my best friend these days and has always been with me in my bad and good times …

Why people don’t understand other people … why do they always think
1. what they do is the best thing to do …
2. what they think is the best thing to think …
3. what they see is the best thing to be seen …
4. what they hear is the best thing to be heard …
5. what they say is the best thing to say …

Why do we never put ourselves in others place to make ourselves realize that others think something else, they want to do something else, they want to say something else, they want to hear something else and why don’t we appreciate that their way could be better … we actually sometimes know that they are far better but fearing our loss to their strengths, we never accept it …

Why we human beings are so adamant to ourselves … why don’t we give importance to others feelings … why don’t we just give space to their thoughts …don’t know why but if this thing starts happening then there is nothing like living in this world … but nobody thinks from others perspective and this place is not less than a hell … no really I mean it … this place is just a hell …

Nobody in this world understands us …. Even the people most close to us do not even try to understand us … I am not feeling like living … everyone is so adamant … why I am not like them … why I am not like many people on earth … this is the biggest shortcoming for me and my life that I am not like many people on this earth …

Things that I can’t discuss with myself, I pen them down ... I am really feeling relax after writing … Don’t know if it makes sense to people who might read it … but it definitely makes to me ….

-NKJ

Saturday, June 7, 2008

insaani sach

भाई को भाई से लड़वा देता है पैसा
बच्चो को माँ बाप से अलग कर देता है पैसा
हे खुदा तुने यह इंसान बनाया कैसा
तुझे भी बेचकर खा जाए
इंसान है ऐसा
पैसा खुदा है इमान है पैसा
मरने के बाद भी इसकी जान है पैसा

गर होता सब कुछ झूट से
तो सच क्यों बोलता कोई
गर मिलता सब कुछ चोरी से
तो मेहनत क्यों करता कोई
गर होता सब कुछ नफरत से
तो प्यार क्यों करता कोई
गर प्यार ना होता सबसे ऊपर
तो इसकी पूजा क्यों करता कोई

- एन के जे

dil vil pyar vyar

तेरी आंखों में डूब जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरी जुल्फों की छाँव में सो जाने को दिल चाहता है
तेरे होंठों का रस पी जाने को दिल चाहता है
तुम मानो या मानो
तुझे पाने की खातिर
खुदा से लड़ जाने को दिल चाहता है

तेरी झलक पाने का बहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तुझसे आँखे जब चार होगी
वह दिन सुहाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
तेरे हुस्न की तारीफ़ में कोई गीत पुराना ढूँढ रहा हूँ
मेरे प्यार की गहराई को माप सके
वह पैमाना ढूँढ रहा हूँ

मेरे जीवन में गर तुम आते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की कितना चाहते है हम
जीवन भर का साथ तुम निभाते
तुम्हे हम बताते
की किस तरह अपनी यादों में बसाते है हम
मरने के बाद भी गर जीते
तब भी खुदा से हर जनम
तुम्हे पाने की इच्छा जताते हम

तुम्हे अपनी आंखों में बसाया है
अपने दिल की गहराइयों में छुपाया है
सपनो की रानी को
हकीकत में पाया है
तेरे प्यार की 100 बार कसम
सिर्फ़ तेरा नाम ही मेरे दिलो दिमाग पर छाया है
शायद यही तेरे प्यार की माया है

ना रातो को नींदे ना दिन में करार
जबसे देखा है तुझे मेरे यार
प्यार में समझो ना हमको गवार
मजनू के चेले है Romeo के सरदार
दुनिया से डर के ना मानेगे हार
मर कर भी करेंगे सिर्फ़ तुम्हे हम प्यार

खुली आंखो से दीदार तो सभी करते है
बंद आंखों से करता हूँ मैं
प्यार तो तुम्हे सभी करते है
तुम पर अपनी जान छिद्दकता हूँ मैं
तेरी याद में एक बार तो सभी मरते है
दिन में 100 बार मरता हूँ मैं

मेरी आंखों में झाकोगे
तुम्हे अपना चेहरा नज़र आएगा
मेरे दिल के दरवाजे पर
ना कोई पहरा नज़र आयेगा
सिर्फ़ तेरे लिए
मेरे सर पर सेहरा नज़र आएगा

दिल के हर कोने में है
तुम्हारी ही तस्वीर
तान्हाइयो के अंधेरे में है
मेरी वो तकदीर
तुम्हारी तस्वीर के सहारे ही
कही मुझे जीना ना पड़े
तन्हाइयो का सागर
कही मुझे पीना ना पड़े
हकीकत में न सही
सपनो में तो बन ही जाना
इस रांझे की हीर

मोहब्बत तो दिलवाले ही करते है
वो दुनिया से हरगिज़ नही डरते है
तन्हाई में भी बाहों में तुम्हे भरते है
दुनिया से ज्यादा
खुदा से भी ज्यादा
सोते है जागते है
जीते है मरते है
दिल से तुम्हे ही अपने
प्यार करते है

- एन के जे

Friday, June 6, 2008

Why high Inflation??

How would you react when someone asks you for Rs x more for the same services that have been provided to you for some years?? I think that’s pretty fair as far as the inflation in the country and at the same time our increase in salary is considered.

Generally everyone should agree that things around us cost always more than they used to cost us before while we grew up. I clearly remember the primary school days when I used to get mango ice-cream for 25 paisa only and even for that we used to think a lot. But now Mother Dairy Butter scotch cone for Rs 30?? Doesn't matter, give me buddy. Earlier Rs 10 used to meet our requirement for the month and mind you that included the bus fare to the school. But now Rs 500 to children in 7th 8th standard seems very less. Even for adults Rs 100 was enough but now no amount can accomplish their dreams. And now human being is capable of spending every penny that he holds in his pocket in a single day.

So what exactly has happened over the years that attitude of the people has changed so much?
Is it only inflation?
Is it increase of salary every six months or a year, especially in private sector?
Or is it something else?

Yes, inflation plays a very big role. Cost of commodities increase every now and then and to meet these requirements people work harder and when they work harder they practically need some sort of enjoyment over the weekend so that they can start the next week with the same enthu that they began the previous one and now there is no limit for pleasure. People spend like anything on cinemas; eat out in restaurants; fun games in malls and shopping branding stuffs. There is no limit now. And this is where we are setting our expectations and bollywood people, businessmen are only trying to meet our expectations and today we can see the result. So effectively who is contributing to inflation, it is us who are doing so.

I know many people might not agree with this, but achieving comfort is the foremost motive of people today and for that they themselves work hard, earn more and spend even more.

Economy says when demand is high and supply is less then obviously prices shoot up. And that is what is happening today. We demand more and more, and it is increasing with days and we keep on blaming the government for the high inflation.

So are we ourselves responsible for high inflation?? Very BIG question, isn't it??

-NKJ

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Naa jaane kyon

चाहा चलना जब भी दो कदम
रुक गए पाँव ना जाने क्यों
चाहा देखना जब भी गगन को
झुक गई नज़रे ना जाने क्यों

कभी ना किसी को रुलाया
रोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों
साथ था सबके हर कदम
खोया पर मैं ना जाने क्यों

दर्द बाटा हमेशा सबका
सहा पर अकेले ना जाने क्यों
जीना चाहता था ज़िंदगी को
पर इसके झमेले ना जाने क्यों

-एन के जे

Monday, June 2, 2008

Aaj mann bahut udaas hai

आज मन बहुत उदास है ... sometimes things are not in your hands but they happen just like that and later u regret them ... and something similar happened today ... Actually nothing has happened as such but i know by my heart that there is something that is bothering me day n night and I just cannot do anything to protect myself and people around me ....

It started in the morning and it is 10:15 PM and still going on ... something is on a tour in my mind all the time ... I call it a छोटी आवाज़ that keeps you busy thinking something or the other ... that is actually your conscious .... You want to do something but you end up doing something else ... why does it happen ... why does it happen to me everytime ... क्या सोचा था क्या पाया है ...

Day was going as usual until my intelligence started arguing with my consciousness ... will not reveal the topic of altercation here ... it is a bit personal ... but would definitely like to pen down that I will not have a very sound sleep today .... Same as it happened last week when I was awake till 4 in the morning ...

Who is actually correct.. your mind or your conscious ... need to think a little more on it ... sometimes your mind is on the right path and sometimes it takes you away from your responsibilities ... conscious is known to be always correct as it is the first thought that comes to your mind .. that is something which you actually want to do but as soon as your mind starts poking its nose in the issue, the going gets tougher for you and you feel yourself in dilemma and what to do then.. nobody knows ..

I feel v should never allow our mind to rule our consciousness ...

My mind and conscious are still fighting .. lets see how things go ..

-NKJ

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Deepawali ke do pal

दीवाली की शुभकामनाये आप सब को
दीवाली के दिन ज़रूर याद करे उस रब को
जिसने तुम्हे जीवन दिया
जीवन में ढेर सारी खुशिया दी

और ना भूले उन माता पिता को
जो करते है तुम पर खुशियों की बारिश
तुम्हारी तरक्की ही है जिनकी एक मात्र ख्वाइश

और जरूर याद करे उन हजारों लाखों करोडो बच्चो को
जो तरसते है सिर्फ़ एक रोटी के लिए
क्या दीवाली क्या होली उनके लिए
जो भूखे है आपके प्यार के
जिनके आँसू नही है इंतज़ार के

क्या खुदा को दोष दे उनकी इस हालत का
या वह ख़ुद दोषी है अपनी इस हालत का
या हम ख़ुद ज़िम्मेदारी ली
खोल के दरवाज़ा अपनी खुद्दारी की अदालत का

!!! २४ अक्टूबर २००३ (दिपावली) की कृति !!!

-एन के जे

Dil aisa kisi ne mera toda

क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे
जी लेंगे फ़िर भी उनकी यादों के सहारे
खुश रहे वह सदा यह दुआ है हमारी
हमारा जैसा भी हुआ ना आए कभी उनकी बारी
चाँद एक है तो क्या हुआ
ढेर सारे है तारे
पतझड़ के बाद ही आती है बहारे
क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे
क्या हुआ अगर वह ना हो सके हमारे

!! १९ अक्टूबर २००३ की कृति !!

- एन के जे

Kadva sach

क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता
क्यों आज इस दुनिया में प्यार भी है बिकता
क्यों इंसानों ने इंसानों की कीमत है लगाई
क्यों आज खुशियों में बजती नही शेहनाई
क्यों नही बहता झरना आज किसी की प्यास भुझा पता
क्यों सिर्फ़ मुसीबत की घड़ी में है खुदा याद आता
क्यों मजबूरन आज मैं इतना कुछ लिखता
क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता
क्यों खुली आंखों से आज सच नही दिखता

यह कविता मैंने १४ अक्टूबर २००३ में लिखी मैं कुछ दिनों से अपने लेख ढूँढ रहा था अपने कंप्यूटर में और आज भाग्ये से मैं इसको ढूँढ पाया और इसको ब्लॉग में प्रकाशित कर रहा हूँ ना जाने क्यों अपनी सारी कृतिया ब्लॉग पर डालना चाहता हूँ शायद इसलिए ताकि एक जगह पर आसानी से इन सबको फुरसत के क्षणों में पड़ पाऊं

अभी आगे मैं अपनी सारी कृतिया यहाँ पोस्ट करूँगा !

-एन के जे

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Pyar se pyara pyar

तेरे बिना यह दुनिया सूनी लागे रे
तेरे बिना यह आँखे सारी रात जागे रे
जहा देखु उठा के नज़र
हर चेहरा तेरा चेहरा लागे रे

मोहब्बत की इन्तेहा महसूस करते है
तेरे बिना एक एक पल
कई कई बार मरते है
अपना सब कुछ देदु आपको
मेरे आंसू ना चले जाए डरते है

मेरा प्यार दूर है
कुछ खट्टी कुछ मीठी बातों के साथ
यह दिल क्या चाहे
बस दो घड़ी अपने प्यार से मुलाक़ात
लेकर उसका हाथो में हाथ
चार पल प्यारी बात
पूरी रात

फूलों में खुशबू है
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
फिजाओ में रंगत है
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
दरिया सा दिल
मेरी जान सा कहाँ
चाँद की चांदनी
मेरी जान सा कहाँ

ज़िंदगी के मायेने बदले
जब तुम मिले
चेहरे ने रंग बदले
जब तुम खिले
छोड़ के दुनिया के सारे गिले
आओ एक सपना देखे
जहाँ आँखें बतियाये
और हो होंठ सिले

तेरी आंखो में डूब जाना चाहता हूँ
तेरे होंठो का सारा रस पी जाना चाहता हूँ
खो जाऊँ इस पल में इस तरह की
यह पल तेरे पलको में जी जाना चाहता हूँ

-एन के जे

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Shradhanjali

श्रधांजलि देश के उन वीरो को जिन्होंने अपनी जान देकर हमे जिंदा रखा !!!

!!!!!!! हिम्मतेबाद्शाह !!!!!!!!!

अपनी माटी की खुशबु को
ना बिकने दिया ना ही मिटने दिया
दुश्मनों के नापाक मंसूबों को
हिन्दुस्तान की धरती पे ना टिकने दिया

देख पे जान न्योछावर करने
धरती माँ के एहसान को भरने
पहुँच गए सीमाओं पर
हमारी ज़िंदगी के लिए मरने

छोड़ गए तरसती माँ
इंतज़ार में पत्नी, बिलखते बच्चे
देश पे कुर्बानी के आगे
रिश्तो के धागे पड़ गए कच्चे
ऐसे है वह वीर हमारे सच्चे

ना ज़िंदगी से कुछ चाहा
ना दुश्मनों के आएग सर झुकाया
वतन पर कुर्बान इन वीरो ने
भारत माँ का क़र्ज़ चुकाया

एक लाश मेरे सिपाही की
लहराता हुआ तिरंगा हाथों में
वह भी किसी के अपने थे
पर ढूँढा ना दर्द रिश्ते नातों में
जिन्हें करना था वह कर गए
और हम उलझ गए सिर्फ़ बातों में

अब बारी है हमारी हमे क्या करना है
मरकर भी इन्हे यादों में जिंदा रखना है
इनकी कुर्बानी खाली ना जाए
कुछ ऐसा कर गुज़रना है
भारत के लिए जीना है
और सिर्फ़ इसी के लिए मरना है
सिर्फ़ और सिर्फ़ इसी के लिए मरना है

" ऐ मेरे वतन के लोगो
ज़रा आँख में भर लो पानी
जो शहीद हुए है उनकी
ज़रा याद करो कुर्बानी
ज़रा याद करो कुर्बानी "

यह पंक्तियों मैंने कॉलेज के दिनों में लिखी थी मुझे उस वक्त भी अपने वतन से उतना ही प्रेम था जितना की आज ज्यादा कुछ कर नही पता हूँ अपने वतन के लिए पर कोशिश करता हूँ जो भी करूँ वह वतन के ख़िलाफ़ ना हो आज भी उन पलो को नही भूल पता हूँ जब इन पंक्तियों को पन्ने पे उतारा था, कितना भावयुक्त हो गया था मैं कुछ कर गुज़रना चाहता हूँ

-एन के जे

Dard

दर्द वह नही जो तेरा है ...
दर्द वह भी नही जो मेरा है ...
दर्द को अपनी उल्फत ना समझो ...
दर्द वह इबादत है जो दूसरो का हो तो हमारा है ..

कितनी पास होकर भी दूर हो तुम ...
दिल का एहसास होकर भी मजबूर हो तुम ...
ना समझ सके जो मेरे दिल की चाह ...
क्या मेरे दिल का सिर्फ़ एक फितूर हो तुम ...

तेरा दिल जो चाहे वह मैं नही जानता ...
मेरा दिल क्या चाहे उससे तू अनजान है ...
मैंने ही कहा खुशी दी है तुझको ...
जो तुझसे खुशी पाने का अरमान है ...

प्यार ना कहे कर ना किया जाए तो नागुवार लगता है ...
प्यार कहे कर ना किया जाए तो दुशवार लगता है ...
प्यार कहा जाए और किया जाए तो गुलज़ार लगता है ...
प्यार ना कहे कर किया जाए तो प्यार लगता है ...

मुझे अपने लिए जीना नही आता ...
मैं अपने लिए जीना नही चाहता ...
चाहता हूँ प्यार जो मेरी इस चाहत को अपना सके ...
खता तो उसकी भी नही जो उसने जीना चाहा ...
खता तो मैंने की जो उसको ना समझ पाया ...

- एन के जे

Friday, May 23, 2008

Lies

Sometime back I used to wonder why people lie. Is it because, it makes them happy? They simply love doing it again n again. Their basic instinct is like that. Or is it because it makes others happy to whom they are lying? Or is it because it is technically incorrect to follow the path of honesty and truth as it might be lengthy, tricky and problematic? Don’t know what actually the answer is but it should be amongst the above.

Some people have grown up listening to lies all around their home/school/locality. For e.g. “Papa is at home but mom on the phone tells some uncle that papa is not at home”. So endlessly listening to these little little things, it has become a part of their trait. So they don’t know why they do it but they just do it. These people lie so casually that they don’t even think about its consequences. I call it "a casual lie".

Some people lie not because they want to but because they have to. They lie because they want to meet the expectations of the people they are lying to. They know that telling them truth might hamper their relationship and it might do some serious damage to them. So they plan to lie in such a way that their dear ones remain unaffected with the bitter truth. I call it "a personal lie" as there is no motive as such behind it but it is said for a noble cause.

Some people fool around the world with their tactical mind plays. They do it for their monetary benefits. They plan, schedule and execute it with perfection. But consequences to these types of lies are very hazardous not only to him but to the whole society. These lies make success appears very close but short-lived too. I call it "a professional lie".

According to me - a lie is after all a lie. And even if it is said for a good cause, it is always short-lived. Truth has always conquered and will continue to do.

-NKJ

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Garbage truck

The following is this week’s flush fact that is being put in my office washrooms and I was so impressed with it that I came back to my seat and the first thing that I did was, searched it on Google and found it easily. Whoever has written it has written it brilliantly.

Read it first.

How often do you let other people's nonsense change your mood? Do you let a bad driver, rude waiter, curt boss, or an insensitive employee ruin your day? Unless you're the Terminator, for an instant you're probably set back on your heels. However, the mark of a successful person is how quickly she can get back her focus on what's important.

Learned it in the back of a Harare City taxi cab. Here's what happened. I hopped in a taxi, and we took off for Westgate. We were driving when all of a sudden a black car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us. My taxi driver slammed on his breaks, skidded, and missed the other car's back end by just inches! Here's what happened next. The driver of the other car, the guy who almost caused a big accident, whipped his head around and he started yelling bad words at us. How do I know? Ask any Zimbabwean, some words in Harare come with a special face.

Now, here's what blew me away. My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy. And I mean, he was friendly. So, I said, "Why did you just do that? This guy almost ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!" And this is when my taxi driver told me what I now call, “The Law of the Garbage Truck." Many people are like garbage trucks. They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of anger, and full of disappointment. As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it. And if you let them, they'll dump it on you. When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personal. You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. You'll be happy you did. I guarantee it.

So this was it: The "Law of the Garbage Truck." I started thinking, how often do I let Garbage Trucks run right over me? And how often do I take their garbage and spread it to other people: at work, at home, on the streets? It was that day I said, "I'm not going to do it anymore." I began to see garbage trucks. Like in the movie "The Sixth Sense," the little boy said, "I see Dead People." Well now "I see Garbage Trucks." I see the load they're carrying. I see them coming to drop it off. And like my Taxi Driver, I don't make it a personal thing; I just smile, wave, wish them well, and I move on.

You must be feeling why I am sharing this when it is readliy available on web. The reason being, this is one of those little things that happen with everyone every time after we wake up and before we go back to bed at night. And important thing is that it occurs effortlessly. I won’t say it is the Garbage truck who is on fault, but it is us who let it dump its garbage on us.

I know nobody wants it to happen then why does it happen? Have you ever thought why does it happen when we never want it to happen? The basic reason for this is that, we have forgotten our courtesy. We have stopped thinking about being courteous and polite to others. There is always something ghastly running within us. And the job of the garbage truck is to only ignite that dangerous hatred gasoline in our hearts.

To me loving people without expecting them to love you in return is what actual love is. And being lovable is the best trait to have. You just need to love everyone unconditionally. And true love, not just for the sake of it. Good manners, civility, graciousness, sociability are some of the adjectives that we should keep with us all the time.

I follow “Gandhigiri” and it really helps me reading the mind of others and understand their behaviour. Just try it once and you would love it.

Try it dear!!!

-NKJ

Monday, May 19, 2008

Just another day ...

A very fresh day I must say. Why fresh?? I got up early in the morning today and went for a morning walk to a nearby sophisticated park with my beloved wife. The weather was extremely pleasant, and drizzling was making it more enjoyable. It had rained the previous night. I used to do morning walk regularly a couple of years ago but the busy schedule at office and home took it out of my mind and I could not continue with my morning walk. But I am feeling much better today. Especially after working for 9 hours on Sunday continuously without an AC / Cooler on a website development, I needed something to refresh myself before the new week starts. And I got a start to the week that I wanted. I believe breathing fresh air is far better than visiting doctors every now and then. Trust me it is.

Office was as usual. Couple of developments, coordinating with the TL and helping team members were the stuffs I was involved in.

My cell phones kept disturbing me every minute, but I am also stubborn enough to ignore them all :-). I hate receiving calls from unknown numbers now but I don’t register myself to do-not-call-registry as sometimes it is easy when a service provider approaches us instead we approach them in need.

IPL fever is also ON. It is a very healthy time pass these days after you reach back home dead tired. I am thinking what people in India would do after the end of IPL, may be ICL would also reach to the glory where IPL has arrived. And then it would be alternate ICL --> IPL --> ICL --> IPL …………… reads very funny but I really don’t doubt why it can’t happen ..

Blogging has become an important part of my life … I would love to write something or the other daily but only if the time permits...

-NKJ

Saturday, May 17, 2008

my PARENTS... my GOD...

It was a holiday today yet so hectic.... it was really... I had a good afternoon nap, still I am feeling very tired.... probably because of the humid weather ... it was a damn hot day... today. I was not in the office AC, so I might have felt it, mamma papa feel it all throughout the day, all 7 days ... that is why I am buying them an AC ... I have always wanted to give them my everything in my best possible way.

When we were kids, they never hesitated to buy us things that we demanded then why should we even think of thinking to give them anything ... I don't know why many of us after growing up think 1000 times before giving anything to our parents. Just because we have started earning, just because we are capable of living of our own, just because we can fight with our own life, just because we have started thinking on the lines that we are mature enough to take our own decisions.... No it is nothing like that; it is just that we have started modernizing ourselves like people in the West, where parents let their children live their life after 18 on their own.... But we are not like them, our culture is different, we have a very different tradition, strong bonding of love, we still believe in living in joint families where even if you cough once, your whole family is standing beside you. We don’t even feel bad listening to their scolding.

I cannot tolerate anyone abusing their parents for any reason. I simply hate those people. How can anyone forget their responsibilities towards them? Parents never forget their responsibilities. They are always with us whether in good or bad times. They don’t even think of keeping us away from their blessings. Then how can we deprive them from our presence and love??

I really feel bad for people who have grown up without parents. For me they must have done something really bad in their previous life that they have been penalized so roughly.

To me, my parents are my God on the earth and I will always live for them.

-NKJ

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Life

Friends,

I would like to share some of my mantras of life:

· Not living does not mean can't live....
· Life is not how u take it as but how u make it as....
· Behavior changes but character remains.....
· I never say I am d best coz I know nobody is....
· I am ill not because I am but because I want to....
· Maturity does not come with age but with attitude....
· I hardly live for myself.... mostly live for others....
· Live life as if you can't die....


I don't write them just like that, but each one of them has a connection with my life in some way.

I have been thru many phases of my life … A mischievous student in the school, silent boy next seat in the college, a shy child at home, an obedient and a techie team member in the office. But I have never allowed anyone deviate me from my principles of life. To me, life is not just living in/for/to yourself but to me life is living life for others you know, you don’t know. Satisfaction that I get for the work for myself does not give me a sound sleep, but being a helping hand for others give me a rock-solid dream as well. I don’t know why I am like that but I just love it. All my personal needs have the least priority in my list.

I might have destroyed dreams of some, while fulfilling my principles and helping many but I don’t regret them not because I don’t consider them mistakes and I wish to forget them but because they were very vigilantly taken decisions that had groomed everyone involved later. This is life. You cannot be in the comfort zone all the time.

My favorite song on zindagi:
Kisi ki muskurahatho pe ho nisaar ….
Kisi ka dadr mil sake to le udhaar ….
Kisi ke vaaste ho tere dil mein pyaar ….
Jeena isi ka naam hai ….
Jeena isi ka naam hai ....


So here I would end and hope to write something sometime later….

-NKJ

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

First one

So finally I have landed in the Blog world. I have always thought of keeping myself away from blogs (why?? I thought these are for people who have lots of time to waste) but really don't know who inspired me to join it. The fact may be that I read Amitabh's blog today and I really liked it in a way that you don't need news channels or news papers all the time to express your views. Blogs can easily do that for you. I have always been cherished by the persona of Mr. Amitabh Bachchan and that is one of the reasons I am entering in this unique world. This is my first blog, so I'll keep it short but I would love to share my feelings/views on myself, my life and different issues every now and then. That is it for now.

bye for now ...
-NKJ